The way that I've been thinking about life has changed a lot lately. I don't know why, but I have been having the urge to simplify things a lot. I don't know if it is that I have just had a change in priority. I am coming to the end of my degree and we have had to take our baby out of childcare. I have realised that I am enjoying being a mum much more than I was before and I am in no rush to put him back into childcare once I graduate. I have also completed a Level 1 Buddhism course recently, which has made me look at things very differently. I don't know if this has had any impact on my change in thinking about everything, but it is possible. I feel that I need to go minimalist in pretty much every area of my life.
I feel like we have too much stuff in the house. I feel a desperate urge to have a big clearout, especially of clothes and just have a smaller wardrobe of clothes that I love and wear, not a lot of stuff that never sees the light of day. I am favouring making things at the moment and would like to make some dresses with some nice material that I have, rather than buy. I have been feeling this way about a lot of things. I've been thinking about my birthday (as people have been asking what I would like) and just don't want any more material items in the house, so instead, I am thinking of asking for a two day dress making course off my husband. Although I will make an exception for second hand books.
It isn't just material items that I have wanted to cut down on. As I mentioned before, I am no rush to leave my current path as a full time mum. I have been thinking of starting my own handmade items business as a way of getting a little money, rather than going into fulltime work. I think this could work, as people are more interested these days in unique handmade items rather than buying conveyor belt items. So I have been doing a fair bit of craft lately, which has been relaxing. But mostly, I have been enjoying the simpler things in life. Previously, I would have been worrying about my career or how I can be 'successful' in my life. Now I find that I am quite happy to sit down with a cup of tea and knit while my baby plays and this is enough. I don't need anything more. This is very different from how I have thought in the past.
I don't know if it is that I am becoming more settled in myself and my life as I get older, or whether it is recent events that have changed my mind. Maybe it is my Buddhism studies or perhaps a bit of everything. But either way, I am finding that I am happier with simpler surroundings and activities. Sewing, going outdoors, reading a book to my baby - these things are fulfilling me in ways that I never imagined possible. I feel like a gap has been filled in my soul, one that has been there for most of my life. Everything feels complete.